Ticket: Meditation

 Everything makes sense in musical form. I wish I could write a song. I always envied those kids in creative writing class that really punctured the wall into real emotion. I’m not an outgoing person, let alone someone who can express what I am feeling in written words. I almost feel like if I had to observe the world and never say anything about it…I could. Except I have to go out in the world and deal with the selfishness of other people, thereby, not remaining silent at all. Everyday the stupidity of mankind is made evident just by driving down the street. The simplest act has become such a burden to the average person that common courtesy, kindness, truth, reality isn’t on their to do list.

It makes me sad for society, that we we have digressed so far because of pure laziness, entitlement, greed and just want of just more…oh and get out of my way.

It’s exhausting!

I wish I could concentrate long enough to not focus on all the negativity I feel from people. 

Meditation is the solution for a more peaceful existence. It will get better with practice.

I must make more time for quiet moments. That’s the ticket!

I Wasn’t Wrong:Hello 2021

Lost ended. Sofie is 13. The world is hopefully on the downside of a global pandemic. My Dad lost his battle with prostate cancer (I wanna say) a couple months ago but it was last November during the middle of this lockdown...nevertheless ive lost track of time. Days, months, weeks, hours...all those increments swirling around in a vortex of suspended animation.I look up...trees, clouds, for an explaination of events i was just moving through...going through the motions. Reading about trauma, finding out the smallest things can be traumatic but you wont know it til years later when you're fucked up but dont know why...trying to figure out why now.

Time flies...

One thing is for sure, I don't have enough time for myself.

Wow, I Really Have To Update My Blog!

Not that I am going to right now, I just think it needed to be said. I've been busy her name is Sofie...and the New season of LOST has started I have to check in with the HIC sistahs!

Homemaker/Political Scientist

Funny how each campaign season I promise myself I won't get so wrapped up in the everyday details of the presidential campaign, but here I go again throwing my whole heart into it, ready to get my hope shattered once again. The big f*cking mess we have found ourselves in,is a strong indicator that I have been right the last two times, because my guys did not get in hence the big f*cking mess. to be cont'd...

The Return of LOST...and then some...

Since the LOST Season 3 Finale last May, ironically nine months ago, I pondered impatiently how I would pass the chasm of time till the start of the new season...



Question: What else takes nine months?



That's right, I gave birth to my own little castaway, in the meantime, just in time to enjoy the new season with a brand new appreciation for patience. AH, perspective... I didn't even need LOST rehab. A slap in the face by the firm hand of reality was sufficient enough. Don't get me wrong I still love the show and the weekly anticipation of a new episode...you know, that sustained "I-can't-wait-till-the-next-episode" feeling... that comes over you the moment the screen turns black. However, a new baby really makes the time fly by and before I know it... it's Thursday again.(I was spending way too much time online anyway) Funny how, a little perspective throws all that time/space continuum talk out the window, and just lets you enjoy the story for what it's worth, in the moment! Let the excess just fall away...and for the record nothing rejuvinates a tired mommy quite like the smokin' hot men of LOST.

BL-Before Lost...

...there was Indiana Jones! I am so excited to be anticipating another Indy episode...I can hardly contain myself...for an adult. What's more important though, is that this 4th installment, marks the return of the best damsel not-quite-in-distress...Marion Ravenwood aka Karen Allen. This casting choice only further proves the genius of the Lucas/Spielberg team. Even thought they have made us(fans of their films)wait irreverent lapses of time between films(mostly referring to the SW saga)...in my fangeek heart it is always worth the wait. Certain movies have always held special places in the sentimental reaches of my cynical heart and nothing brings you back to that place of a simpler time than the memories surrounding a favorite film. Sitting in a darkened theater in anticipation, each minute seemingly an eternity, til at last the sweeping orchestral soundtrack wisks you away. Adventures untold, reality be damned...at least for a dimlit couple of hours. It is in that isolated setting that the true experience of the film can be realized, and only then can it be fully appreciated, and remembered for years to come.Light, sound and sensation melded into a nugget of solid gold enchantment. Okay, so these guys could use another big payday, more power to em'! I'm game!